Bad night.
Bad night tonight. I don’t know why I was surprised when I saw it. I’ve been surprised for weeks now that I HAVEN’T seen it. But I went to the bathroom and noticed my underwear was completely soaked with brown blood. I’m not panicking. I know the drill. It could be something, it could be nothing. I have a dr’s appointment Wednesday and I’ll just wait then to find out. I’m just a little pissed off and emotional right now, not that that helps anything.
Ironically after I wrote my last entry I went home and was able to find he heartbeat and Bryan got to hear it as well. I find it interesting that until then I was pretty guarded and emotionally a bit disconnected from the pregnancy, so when I finally hear the heartbeat and it starts to feel real and I get excited, OF COURSE this would happen. I should have just assumed with my luck.
No cramping or anything (yet) but every time I’ve gone to the bathroom since there’s been a little more. Hopefully I don’t wake up to a nasty surprise.
On top of it all Emily is still in her no-sleep phase. She only napped 45 minutes today and fought hard at bedtime. The second I turned off the lamp I got a swift kick in the eye and saw white for a few seconds. 45 minutes later I was still struggling to keep her laying down. I turned over to get a drink of water and she stood up and ran towards the end of the bed and fell off. *sigh* Another 45 minutes of calming her down and trying to get her to sleep, and I eventually gave up and asked Bryan to bounce her. It’s almost 11pm and she’s still awake.
Feeling just very overly emotional and like I want to cry, which is understandable. I hate not knowing what’s going to happen. I hate not knowing how to help Emily sleep. I just hate the unknown, period.
I’m not going to sleep at all tonight I’m sure and I will be even more exhausted and emotional. It’s going to be a long week.
~Sheralyn
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I’m sooo sorry. I’ve been spotting this weekend too. I’m scared too and not sure I can wait until Wednesday also.
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My thoughts are with you. Hugs.
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xoxo
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*Hugs*
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Hugs mama
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Brown is old blood, bright red and you should be concerned. I had bleeding at the start of this pregnancy and all was ok, try think positive and i’m sure everything will be ok. Get an early scan for some reasurrance. I can relate to the hormones too, its tough being a women let alone pregnant lol. hugs xx
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Ugh I’m sorry you’re going through this 🙁 Hoping and praying everything’s going to be okay!
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