It hurts

At the end of the day, all I want is to know that I have a family.

When I die, I want to have memories of times spent at the dinner table. Thoughts of laughter and jokes. It has always been important to me that the family I have be a loving one. the family dynamic that I have right now doesnt suit me. It doesnt make me happy.

I want to be part of a family that has clear roles and values. I don’t want a mom who treats me like a roommate some days and a child others.

i dont want what i have right now. but i cant have what i want right now. when i am a grown woman, i will have a family the way i want it.

its what i need

kiss the frog!