debbie downer

i never went on the date saturday. i was stood up. i texted him around 8, he told me to call him, so i did. we made plans for him to pick me up right after he was done showering. after an hour and a half i texted him he said he was getting dressed. another hour and a half passed by, i texted him. no response. waited another hour. called him, got his answering machine. i gave it another hour before i called it a night and wiped my makeup off and got in the comfy’s pjs i had. i didnt have any junk food or else i would have eaten my problems away. but i did have some bud and some long island ice tea. it didn’t help me find any answers to life but it did make me laugh at the whole season of the office. oh and then at 1am i got a text message that says exactly this “call you back later, waiting on a tire” riiiiight. i was married to the King of Excuses. not really sure where you have to be on a saturday, 1 am, to wait for a tire. and no, he never called me. haven’t heard from him sense. is it silly that i’ve texted him a few time asking if everything is alright?

i cancelled 2 plans that night to hang out with this guy, who has been asking me for 2 weeks to let him know when i could hang out. i haven’t been on a date for years and im already over it. i never want to date again. i’ll stick to girls night out.

my dog was put down today. he had a massive tumor on his leg that was surgically removed over the summer. a few months ago he had another one growing on his neck. the vet prescribed the best pain meds and told my brothers mom (she took over taking care of him) to let him live comfortably, he wont have much longer. i said my goodbyes yesterday. he couldn’t even wag his little stub tail. i thought about giving him a dog biscuit smeared with peanut butter today but i was at the doctors office with Emma. i don’t really believe in heaven, but i do believe in an afterlife. i know him and his other doggy buddy are there, playing, just waiting to greet us with sloppy doggy kisses.

oh no. im tearing up. time for something positive. Emma had her cast removed today. her arm is a little stiff so it hurts her to straighten it out. but the doctor said to let her play like she normally does and it should gain its flexibilty back.

goodnight.