brighter days ahead. maybe (pic)

ahh richie.

why do i even bother? he knows how to use his words. he knows how to tell me what i want to hear.

im staying. i wanted to leave so bad though. i was dead set on not listening to him but

ive been thinking about our relationship alot, sometimes i feel sick and gross because of the things i’ve been through with him but i don’t give him enough credit.

he would spend his last breath loving me. he may treat me like shit sometimes but i guess its in a guys nature to be that way. kinda like its in a womans nature to just act like a bitch some days. and we aren’t sure why, just in a bad mood i guess.

well anyways, ive been watching the twins and it is hard as fuck. if i get one to stop crying then another starts. my back is kiling me from all the bending over and picking up the heaviest 6 month i’ve ever known. he is 20lbs. omg!!!! i need to post pictures of them.

my friend stacey came over and saw them and said that elizabeth looks like a saint compared to them. lol i didn’t think she was a difficult baby at all.

i still didn’t get a birthday card but im just going to let it go. whatever. i guess it just bothered me because i’ve always gotten one from him, he even homemade one when we were living with his grandpa with no jobs.
also i didn’t get my tattoo. the guy i set an appoitment with said he needed more time to draw it out. he wants to do it today but i told richie that we can just wait it out more and spend the money or save it. the tattoo artist didn’t even call me, i called him an hour before i was suppose to met him. i was super stoked. thats life. damn you life.

i did get a new phone. richie bough a 3gs from his friend. its nice. im not a iphone fan but its nice. i like it.