arianna’s day

“From hundreds of miles you cry like a baby
You plead with me, shout, scream, tell me I’m staying
I know I know I know, I’m still your love”

my sister should be having her baby soon. i really hope. she’s been in the hospital with contractions since 3.

so we set the date to go vist my fam on the 25th. im super stoked to see everyone! its been too long. i want to get crazy drunk with my brother from another mother. i just don’t want that guilt of being a mom now so i shouldn’t be allowed to do that stuff.

richie and i again fought today. god. i kept saying “im done, im done” “this relaionship is over, i cant do it” but he told me that im just tired because of the babies, and its true. he dropped me off at the store to get some things and i surprised him with a sorry gift. he liked it. he loved the idea more, which is what i really wanted; to show him.

we bought some used couches at the thrift store. i feel sad about it but happy that we won’t have to spend money every month renting some.
its already midnight and emma is still not asleep. neither am i.

i recieted a poem to myself today that i wanted to write down so i wouldnt forget it, but wouldn’t ya know. i forgot. i can’t remember one word of it. my brain and concentration is gone. its been gone for awhile now. i should go to school. i need some more education in me. i need more brain stimulation.