09/09/2010
im crazy…er.
who isn’t though?
i’ve been looking for a job. moslty online. i don’t ever leave the house much. but since the weather is so much cooler i’ve been taking the girls out for walks to the park. its so nice. i want it to be like this everyday for the rest of my life.
i did another poem in my head. i had 3 good lines, but by the time my coffee was done brewing i forgot everything. even the title. how sad.
my dream world is getting mixed with reality. im getting worried i might start to sleep walk or make mistakes during the midnight feedings and diaper changing. i found the pepper shaker with the dishes this morning. i don’t remember putting it there. and i thought the baby was laying on my chest last night and it was really the cat.
richie has been kinda weird latley. i think the weed he has been getting from his mom is laced with something. i even feel a little off when i smoke it.
i look and feel a little fatter, but the number on the scale hasn’t changed. im still 129. i want to be 114. that would be just beyond perfect for me. 😀
i need more music in my life. and a little less chaos.
Hmm… TOOL and Meshuggah has become my soundtrack lately. I’m becoming insane, unstable, due to the lack of pot. This hyper tense psychosomatic psychosis, though, is quite good for the art. Anywho… Cary around a little pad of paper and pen. Etch down, as it comes, any lines you think of, and expand from there. That way, you’ve no excuse to not write a poem. Funny thing is I was just wondering
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what you were up to, how life was going for you, when I clicked my bookmarks and there you were on top. Maybe you shouldn’t smoke pot given you from somebody like, Her, no? Hell, you never know these days what the asshole dealer even laces it with. Really, you need to find someone who has been dealing for a few decades to trust it, minimum of 2.5. If they bought in the 70’s, they are trustworthy.
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Every once in a while I get that weird dream/reality mix up thing. I’d be careful about smoking laced weed, no telling what it might do to you. Maybe you’ve actually lost weight but you’re retaining fluid and getting puffy?
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129..GEEZ I would love to be that weight, LOL. if you think something is wrong with the weed I wouldnt smoke it anymore, wouldnt want anything happening to you guys…esp you.. good luck with your job search.
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Ryn: he has clothes, I just can’t seem to get them washed, our washer at home quit working and the laundromat has like half as many dryers as washers so I might get them washed but not be able to find a dryer before they close in the evening.
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