Dancing, etc.
I’m debating giving up the swing dance class. It’s not that I don’t enjoy it, it’s just that I’m so challenged at the dancing that it’s overly noticeable and to the point that while other people are trying out new moves I just sorta stand awkwardly with my partner with a clueless look on my face. I’ll probably at least go one more time just out of stubbornness and to see if things start to click any better. But I don’t want to keep going if I’m just going to be the clueless guy that no one wants to dance with. I can find other means of socialization.
Meanwhile, I’m finally really enjoying my college life, which is coming a little late being this is my last semester in college and all. But for the first time in my life I’ve actually become sociable and approachable enough that, when I sit down in the dinning hall to eat, there’s a good chance a friend is going to spot me and join me. And I realize this is nothing to most people, but I’ve never actually had stuff like that happen before. It’s very strange for me to be “one of the crowd” so to speak.
And so the journey of social Matt continues.
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Jesus Matt, no one learns how to swing dance in three lessons or less! Yay for social Matt. I can sit in the dining hall and no one will sit with me, but I bet I look pretty pretentious and cold, all wrapped up in secret writing and such. Oh well. ~I’ll be
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I like the sound of social Matt 🙂
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YFN = STUPID. MATT! You’re one of the crowd! I actually haven’t heard that term in a REALLY long time, but either way, I’m glad you’re allowing yourself to be more approachable. I think your in-person interactions will really increase your self esteem and further reaffirm just how cool you are. Really. Love ya, Soul Friend!
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ryn: I didn’t log off. I’m actually still logged on right now.
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I am completely and utterly against you quiting classes. I boycott your idea! Have you tried practicing outside of class? It would help a ton.
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dude – don’t give up! swing dancing is a blast but it Is a tough style to learn… keep yer chin up! expanding ones social life is tough – sounds like you’re doing a swell job.
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Yay Matt!!! RYN: I didn’t mention you in my entry because Charlie wants to talk to me on the phone and I keep making excuses as to why I can’t–mainly I have anxiety issues related to talking to faceless people. I didn’t want him to know that I broke my taboo with someone before him. So. You completely made my birthday, Matt! Do not doubt that!
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rynrmn (hahahaha): yes, i just started writing here again recently. i’ve been swell, for the most part. constantly en flux and always tryin to make the best of things. . . it’s lovely to be reading you again! h.
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That’s so great Matty! I think you should work on the swing dancing a bit more. When I started my belly dance classes, I was awful for the first 3 or 4 weeks, but then it got easier. Swing is hard to learn. It takes a bit, but it’s an impressive skill.
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I’m so excited you are becoming socialized!! Stick with dancing, you may end up being decent by the last lesson!!!
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okay matt, you’re on. a question a day. haha. my eyes just glanced down briefly and i caught the beginning of your first note, the part where it says, “jesus matt” and i thought for a second, “there’s a jesus matt?
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RYN: I forgot to mention that it was a secret. You are extraordinarily easy to talk to, is why. Charlie…is different. Kind of prickly, with the capacity for bitchiness. And also…this sounds bad, but I’ve never talked to an intersexual before and I’m kind of terrified his voice won’t fit with my impression of him.
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yeah, i always hate doing things i suck at. if i can’t be better than anyone else in the room, i give up quickly. that’s why i don’t knit.
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Your new nickname is Social Matt, just so you know. Hey, you brought it on yourself. 🙂
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I can relate to the college bit. I’ll graduate in december and for the first time it seems like I can’t go anywhere without seeing someone I know or meeting someone new. I spent the last 5 years pretending like I was the only person at the college… I never knew being social could be anything but sucky. -random noter
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