More and more pain…never ending

This morning’s weigh-in: 125.7 lbs.

I’m more depressed then ever and for once it’s not about my weight. 

My foot is in worse shape then before.  I have had numerous calls to the Orthopedics office and the EARLIEST I can see my doctor is the 4th of next month.  I just had the cortisone shot on the 4th of this month.  A month later and I’m still in agonizing pain…different than before.  Have you ever had your feet cramp up in a  muscle cramp?  That’s what the foot and the ankle feel like all the time.  It’s spreading into my lower leg and I have had to leave work early a couple of times due to pain.  I can’t walk on it for long and being off it, surprising enough, hurts like mad too.  It hurts all the time.  ALL THE TIME!  Today was the worst day.  It doesn’t matter what I wear on my feet it still hurts.  I have a pair of New Balance shoes which were recommended my the orthopedic doctor and I had orthodics put in as also recommended by the orthopedic doctor and it still hurts.  Orthodics are specially designed insoles you put into your shoes and they help you not have pain by being padded and flexible.  Nothing seems to help it.  I even ice it and put a warm heating pad on it and it still hurts.  

I’m angry, depressed and scared all at the same time.  I’m frustrated and want answers NOW!  I don’t want more surgery but if it comes down to it, I may just want it chopped off.  I can’t live with this pain.  I don’t have a high threshold for pain but this is ridiculous.  I’m not imaging it and I’m not over exaggerating it either.  I’m in sincere pain. 

If you say prayers, PLEASE pray for me.  If you can spare a kind thought, please think of me.  It would be greatly appreciated.