Long Over-due Entry

Weight today: 133.5 lbs
I’m sorry for waiting so long to write.  Things have been stressful and instead of writing about them, I’m holding them in and have lost interest to share what’s going on.  This has come to a turning point where all I can do is write them down for fear of exploding with stress.
For starters, my weight.  I can’t seem to control it no matter what I do.  I’ll restrict and it’ll stay the same. I binge and/or purge and it may stay the same or go higher.  I’m slowly coming to the conclusion that I need to find time to exercise and eat the right things and watch portion control if I really want anything in my weight to change, which is hard to do when you have an eating disorder.
I had the follow-up for the Endocrinologist.  She said my thyroid is fine, and that I still need to watch what I eat to control the hypoglycemia.  I know the drastically low blood sugars are the result of purging.  They HAVE to be, but on the other hand I’m dipping low even when I don’t purge.  She also took my blood pressure when I was there, and that too was low, so I thought maybe it’s a combination of the two.
I saw a new primary care physician on Friday.  Told her my complete history.  I’ve been very dizzy lately, and we have found out from some exams she preformed on me in the office that I have an inner ear infection which is causing me all sorts of problems.  She prescribed Meclizine and a nasal spray that will help with the inner ear inflammation.  So far it’s been even worse when I take the medicine.  So tomorrow, for the sake of work and staying safe, I’m not taking the medicine and calling the doctor to see what else I can do to help my existing dizziness.  I had to leave my car at church yesterday afternoon because I couldn’t drive it, it was that bad!
I saw my orthopedic surgeon on Monday of last week, and found out he is leaving the practice the end of June.  I was really pissed!  He’s been there from day one with my ankle issues and now he’s leaving me to find someone new.  The pain hasn’t subsided and I don’t know who else to see.  He gave me a couple of names of doctors he recommends, but at this point in time, I’m just living with the pain because I really don’t feel like getting to know a new person.
At work, my co-teacher, Diana is out of the classroom for her son who needs medical attention.  Her son developed a sty on his eye and she has to do warm compresses on it every two hours to help it.  If it doesn’t go away they need to do surgery.  This has her freaked out.  Her son is only 8 and she is worried about it.  She will be out this upcoming week as well.  On top of that, the classroom has moved, which means I had to move everything into the new classroom, by myself.  My boss helped me, but I was pretty mad that I had to move without my co-teacher.  Most of the classroom stuff is hers and I had to pitch a lot of it.  We lost a lot of space, like closet space, when we moved.  Quite frustrating.
Last week was not my week.  Oh and on top of all that, we are getting new children starting this upcoming week in our classroom.  That’s fine but I still wish we had both teachers helping out.