In Three Short Weeks…

Today’s weight: 117.3 lbs.
My highest weight this week was 119 lbs.  That was what I weighed in at yesterday.  So this upcoming week I am watching what I am eating and cutting down a bit.  In three short weeks I will be having my third and final, hopefully, surgery on my right ankle, so I need to watch what I eat now so I don’t gain weight like crazy when I am laid up for a few weeks afterward.
My father-in-law is coming into town the Monday before surgery.  He will be helping us out seeing I can’t take care of my husband when I am on crutches. My husband is in a wheelchair and I tend to his needs on a daily basis, but cannot do so when I have one working foot and two hands propelling me around on crutches.  When my father-in-law leaves on the 9th, my mother-in-law will stay with us for another week until I get the follow-up appointment from the surgeon on the 17th of April.  I’m really not looking forward to surgery but am looking forward to hopefully being pain free.  I’ve lived with pain in my ankle for three years now and am looking forward to not having any more.  It’s just recovery after surgery that I am not looking forward to.
I hate relying on other people to do what I am supposed to be doing, like taking care of my husband.  That’s my job and i should be able to do it.  But with recovery after surgery I have to rely on other people to do what i should be able to do.  I like being able to do things on my own.  It’s not a difficult recovery time, just time consuming and I need patience in doing so.  I will be missing out on work due to this surgery, so I feel I am letting people down at work as well.  Overall I feel like I’m a burden.