No more lemonade.

So two days after I started the cleanse I stopped. I wasnt doing it right…I tried so hard to down that lemonade concoction but it was absolutly nasty. I couldnt stomach it so I was dehydrated and weak from the Salt water flush. SO I ended up eating some whole weat crackers.

In other news…I’ve been either being super needy lately or Doug just isnt giving me enough attention. Its hard because his daughter is here and I understand that and I WANT him to give her all of his attention…lately I get a couple texts durring his work day and then a 5 to 10 minute phone call on his way home from work and thats it….and I get that he’s busy. I just need verbal reassuring that he misses me and cares about me. Lately its been like me saying I miss you and I love you and he just says it back…its hard to here "I love you too" everytime…is that crazy? I just want him to be the one to say it first like HALF the time maybe…I feel like its always my idea. Maybe its just me being insecure…I’m just need verbal encouragement sometimes. I give him a TON of veral encouragement. Maybe I’m just being too emotional.

I’ve been packing the last two days…I have a few weeks before I move but I wont have much time to pack. I have long days of work all this coming up week and then hopefully going to Dougs. ( Unless he breaks up with me because I’m needy) …

I miss having all my roomates…for always having someone to hang out with…always something going on. Now I will live by myself. Not so excited.

Going to hit the gym today. I’m hoping to get back into running…or something. Gotta burn those calories.