ive got do something
So for some reason ever since I cheated on Doug…and we worked things out I’ve been terrified that he’s going to leave me. I threw myself at his feet for him to forgive me and I really threw myself 100% in the relationship. After that for some reason I never felt secure….he’s never given me a reason to think he would leave me… I’m trying to get to a point where if he did leave me I’d be okay. I’m thinking if he leaves me its not going to be over something I did….it will just be that he can’t picture marrying me. It doesn’t even make sense. There is no justification for my feelings. Its possibly just me thinking its too good to be true. Maybe …or maybe its intuitions. I don’t know. All I know is… I’ve got to find a way to get out of the this place mentally. I need to find a way to feel like he is a part of my life, but not my life. I don’t know what I’m going to do but I’m going to do something.
When did you cheat on Doug?! Did I miss something?! I’ve been in your shoes before…It’s along the same lines that someone who is cheating typically projects their guilt onto their partner and becomes paranoid that their partner is cheating on them…Unfortunately, I don’t think you will get over that feeling for quite some time…
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hm i know this feeling well. my suggestion is to find a hobby that you love and can do without him. thats what i plan to do to feel like i could handle being alone again if it has to come to it. maybe just talking to him will help too?
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