3 days in bed

I’ve been laying in bed for 2 and a half days now…Im over it. I need to go do a couple things today…and then of course its Cinco day!

Doug being gone is killing me! I never thought I’d be this girl…but everything has changed in the last few months…I mean Shelly and I are on the same sched so she’s always gone on her days off, Aubry moved back to Orlando. ..and those were my two girlfriends. I had plenty of hang out time with the two of them. NOW I am hanging out in bed alone for 3 days! WELL…..I did go to Taco night monday night and I did have Robyn over after and we had wine and chatted for hours…and looked at engagement rings haha. But besides that I havent done anything.

Im watching Sex and the City and of course its the one that Carrie cheats on Aden with Mr. Big and I was going NUTS….trying to get the guilt to go away….of course when I started to feel guilty I would change the channel… I mean Doug and I have mostly worked through all that and now I am just re building trust. I just cant help the guilt I feel sometimes….I had to refrain for calling him…poor guy cant sleep much as it is and now Im going to call him crying about a mistake I made…anyways. I’ve got to get past the guilt.

I’m going to get his oil changed….and maybe get my work pants altered. I dont know. I feel absolutly lame. Maybe I’ll hit the book store…and find something new to read.