this weekend was ehhh..

okay so i got a second strike on my youtube account for copyright infringement so all my paranormal activity 3 videos were taken down. mm so john was practically begging me to hang out with him again but i was kinda dreading it bc on our first kind-of date it wasn’t that fun, i honestly felt i would have more fun hanging out with my other friends. he’s super into academics and he’s kinda racist, ugh. he’s hella boring 🙁 he doesn’t get my humor at all and it’s super hard to keep a conversation going with him if i don’t talk crap about people which he really seems to be into. plus i hate the fact that he pays for everything when i insist i dont want him to pay for me and it sucks because welll

okay so i needed to watch grease with someone. i really actually wanted to watch with Dahee because we’re both in choir and we both have friends in the musical and she would have been really into it like me because she watched grease too. john didn’t even know what grease was, it’s bitchy for me to talk about a nice person like this but i don’t care if he’s nice I’M A BITCH OK i cannotttt connect with this guy and i don’t really want him tutoring me anymore because it takes a long time for him to explain math to me and i didn’t want to develop this kind of relationship with my tutor. grease was super fun to watch though, it’s fun seeing my friends in a new light. the person from amador who played teen angel was hella good, feel bad for raghav because he’s doing closing cast and he has the same part, which frankly im not so sure he can match up to. the leads were kinda ehhh but i had to see it, i was happy my dance party on day 1 of tryouts came this far to be the lead. his acting was ok, and his singing. eileen’s sandy was kinda awkward because she wasn’t very enthusiastic but her singing was amazing. they didn’t sing hopelessing devoted to you either and instead sang since i don’t have you. there was basically no character development and things were vague ie no closure on rizzo’s pregnancy, sandy NOT being at the dance, and no car race.. which is a big deal. overall fun to watch, but obviously i was sad because i couldn’t discuss it with john since he doesnt know anything about it

usually im tolerant with these kind of people but just yesterday was so boringg. should have gone to the St. Patrick’s Day parade in dublin, they were giving out Bob Marley lighters lol but john asked me to senior ball yesterday on the spot. i panicked kinda and said yeah i’ll go with you but NOO i really dont want to. he’s paying for my ticket and i hate it when he pays for my stuff, i hate owing people. i asked him if i was able to still go to junior prom because i obviously want to go to that more than senior ball. i still have senior friends but its a lot and i feel bad about it. plus its gonna be boring dancing with him, i kinda just want to ditch him there. shiiz just realized junior ball’s in SF… aw jeez overall i’m not too happy about it. my brother’s such a gossip, he texted my sisters right away when he saw me holding a flower in my hand when i got back home. they were all woww lookit you getting asked by a senior when you’re a junior but im not too happy about it, id honestly rather not be asked

this is bitchy, honest me and i am dreading this week

jenny’s kind of pissed at me. same with dean. kind of been avoiding them this week. now taylor and jasmine need me tomorrow for pysch and michael’s pissed at me for not doing my job in tro, even though the club is already dying and basically has 10 members FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK gonna go cry now not really im just

what the fuck im a bitch what is wrong with me i am not rational right now