selfreflect

do you get stressed out for no reason? My days lately consist of:

sleeping at 4 am and waking up past 1 pm
eating too much
biting my nails
internet (OD, tumblr, facebook, youtube)
watching TV
drawing

I clean my room most of the time when I get stressed out or am avoiding something. mostly avoiding doing SAT practice, finding out info on my online precalc class, and also singing for Foreigner which Im not so hot about doing since Im not a fan of choir ppl since most of my friends graduated. I don’t even drink water anymore. No wonder my lips are so dry all the time. Get it together. I’m actually kinda happy that Surya’s gone to India. I’m also happy that I couldn’t hang out with my friends today. Three time’s a week is not really my style and I like my space. Say it with me : balanceee. Peeves always include:

clingy people
ignorant people
people who brag
people who drag me into gossip
people worshipping other people
following the crowd
fat-people-eating-while-talking noises

yeah. i have a thing with making lists, it seems like the only productive thing i do nowadays. things i hate about myself:

being really stupid sometimes
being awkward or shy sometimes
not being able to stick up for myself, take insults
inability to say no to people
my absentmindedness
not living up to my full potential / lazy / procrastination
a lot of physical features: thighs, nose, nails, etc
apologize too much even when its not my fault
being afraid to tell how i really feel all the time

it’s a habit of mine to insult myself, I can’t help it now. things I like about myself:

accepting / inclusive with newcomers or misunderstood / different people
my smile i guess is my favorite part of my body
creativity with art
make others laugh or feel good about themselves

I can’t think of anymore right now but whatever. To whoever’s reading this, what do you do to relieve your stress / be happy? I’ve probably asked this a bunch of times but I forget