Holy Shit April

Are you trying to kill me? I’m so exhausted from all these new experiences being thrown at me everyday. A LOT has changed within a month. If anyone remembers my last entry, it says I could have better days. I just came back from New York and it was awesome but tiring. Later that day, Surya serenaded to me and asked me to prom with the help of Mark, Rene and Jacob. and Tam. It was awesome. They changed it to ‘I Want Ashley’ instead of ‘I Want Candy’.

I know this is kinda fast, but after prom (4 days ago now) we were slowdancing to the last song outside and the music stopped but we kept dancing. He kissed me on the top of my head and I was so nervous. After many attempts we finally did it. Seriously so much has happened since then. I’ve seriously fallen for him.

I don’t want to ruin this, I told him. He’s fine with it. Dom almost blew my cover and told mom. SHIT DOMINIC KEEP CALM.

Today was just .. whoa. We sat under a tree off the softball field and we sat there. We were playing truth or dare and he dared me to kiss him for a long time. We were both so nervous. But I went in for it. Other failed attempts and just talking. Truly a memorable day. He played with my hair. and told me he likes my calves for some odd reason. he couldn’t stop touching them. I finally tried just making out. I told him to close his eyes and we just went for it. We didn’t really know what we were doing but it was still enjoyable nonetheless. He likes playing with my hair alot. I get butterflies sometimes. Can’t wait to see him during lunch again tomorrow. I always have something to look forward to. I will just have to dedicate an entry to him, it sounds like we’re kind of lusting for each other. (which we kinda are) but i’m thinking next week that we should try a week without kissing or anything and just talking like before. AHH but i like kissing. its so new. and weird to me. it has made me more self-consious than ever. He likes a lot of things I don’t like about myself.. seems fishy. Haha

I’ll keep whoever reads this updated later. And SAT is in 10 days – FUCK!