Nord’s Thoughts #4

Hello! I haven’t been very active, have I? Sorry. It’s hard to keep up with something. I write whenever I feel like it, because most days are extremely uneventful.

Yesterday I went out. We were supposed to go to the beach but the car broke down. I got a bag of chips.

I’m going to be mentioning some sensitive topics so uh just a warning.

I got yelled at by my mother two days ago. It got really bad. I can’t live here anymore, I feel unloved. I don’t feel like I can be myself here. This is the reason why I hate myself so much, to be honest. I can’t take it anymore, I have to leave. And I am going to leave. My only friend called her grandma and they’re cleaning out a room for me. I don’t know what is going to happen to me but I really hope it goes well. If I get murdered by her family, you’ll know.

That’s a weird thought. Just something I worry about. I worry about dying a lot. It’s gonna hurt. I don’t know where I’ll go when I die either. My theory(?) is that we’ll go wherever we were before birth.

If I don’t move, I may just run away, and if I don’t do that, well, I don’t know what I’m gonna do.
Thank you for reading! Sorry for being a bit dark or whatever.