Nord’s Thoughts #1

Hello. Where do I start? Well, my name is Nord. Not really, but I’m gonna go by that name on here. First of all, I’m an 8 year old boy. I live in Ireland. I have autism, depression, bipolar disorder, DID and OCD. I’m really lonely. I wonder if people use this site? I’m looking for friends. I wish people would pay attention to me. Speaking of attention, I suspect myself to have a histrionic disorder because I really can’t stand not being in the spotlight all the time.

I basically grew up here on the Internet, so I have had access to some pretty dark stuff ever since I was about 6. Also, since I’m an alter, my body is physically 14. I really don’t like that though because I know I’m 8. I just feel it and it feels right. I don’t know. Just please treat me as if I’m physically 8.

I wonder why I turned out this way. To be honest, nothing that horrible really happened to me. I guess I was abused in some ways, but they just don’t feel bad enough. Right now, I’m at the lowest point of my life. This summer has been detrimental. I really feel so alone and bad. I feel tempted to get myself institutionalised or arrested just for a change. I would rather do those things instead of living at this hellhole of a house.

Well, I guess that’s all I’m gonna write for now. Don’t get annoyed if there’s a new entry in less than an hour or something. I really need something to spend my time on, so here I am. God, I wish my sister would shut up. She’s always laughing with her annoying voice and it makes me want to go kill her. Anywho, I’ll return once I feel like it. Thank you for reading, if any of you are even reading this at all. Please feel free to message me if you want.