Irrefutable melodrama

I’m playing a game, and there is no way for me to win. It really doesn’t matter what I do I’m in the middle of a war between the most dangerous of species. How do I say this, women are the most manipulative and destructive of all. It’s even said that god maybe a woman, I say if there is a god then it is surely a woman. No other creature could have created things so beautiful and so deadly at the same time. This is all related to my life and what is going on in it but to be honest I’ve never come across a member of the female sex who did not have a plan. There is always something they want and they know how to get it even if it means sacrificing something very dear to them. It makes no difference to me anymore, I miss being used and abused, for it has been my path for quiet some time now. I’ve even been used against my self to make me become better than I am, used to fill the empty space in their hearts, to be here just for their enjoyment, so that I can live the life he never did. I’ve been used against my own mother, who also uses me on a daily basis to at least have a reason for crying. All of this purely done by women around me and when I say anything to try to stop it then I’ll be quilted into believing that I’m the bad guy and that I have used and over used and abused them. I’m a guy and more of a kid at that so why should I have to do this? Why can’t it all just be clear? Why are they so vague and determined? I swear I never asked for this but I’m afraid I’m used to it. i really need it to stop but it’s my error I’m the one who is always wrong and stupid and so loveable they are always trying to protect me, or so I’ve been told. On a more neutral note I must say that life is but a game and I’ll never get tired of playing, after all if you keep on playing you may win someday.