A Lesson To Die For
Today I got one of the most amazing lessons on human behavior from my beloved grandmother. Not to say that it was wrong, but it was a thing to make the hopeless even more irritated. I’ve been asked constantly by all the members of my family about my relationship with a certain friend. This friend, they see as not fit for me by the difference in our social status, and her reputation, that of a whore (although only as stated by my family) does not help the issue. Anyways, she is only a friend whom I understand on the grounds of philosophy and her daily actions amuse me so. I spent a lot of time with her and that led my beautiful family to believe that she is only trying to make me fall in love and take me for all I’ve got. Why is it that if I spend more than two hours with someone they will try to rip my heart out? Well, I have no idea, but my family seems to have one or two. The lesson however is this; you must always be on-guard and think the worst of the people around you. Now, does that make you want to cry or what? It is the most beautiful slogan for the hopeless. What shall I think of myself? If everyone is going to take advantage of me in one way or another then what am I doing? Am I not just another one of those people, trying to take advantage of others? It seems that I have not learned a thing about this "human world" business, its lots of hard work and pain. Let me say that in a more poetic way, being a fully grown human must be painful. I can feel a bit of the pain, but I must ask, do I look infected? Will I grow to be a heartless being who is only concerned with his own well-being? And if so, will I forget my hatred for that type of attitude or will I simply ignore it and be miserably happy? "It’s not easy having a good time, even smiling makes my face ache" a quote from RHPS that never fails to make me smile and remind me of how beautifully chaotic and horrifying life is. The mental decay of society is just what I do not want to think of, it irritates me that my family is just another part of it. no worries though, everything is as funny as ever.