More into me.

As I have been read my entries in the open diary. I see that I do not write much about myself or the people around me………Well…………..I have 3 kids and me and my boyfriend live together. My first born is a boy, his name is Joseph. He is 8 years-old. I met his father in Tampa Fl. in 1994. I was 18 yrs-old and he was about 21. He was my first love, my first kiss, and my first lover. He was good to me but he couldn’t seem to stay on the right side of the law. In the spring of 1996 I got pregnant with Joseph and two month later Joe his daddy was sentence to 5 years prison. So I give birth to our son by myself. The next three years was very lonely but I always found a loser or two the waste my time with………………………………………And then I met James, who I thought at one time was the love of my life, but was really wrong about him. He was nothing and he still is nothing to me now. But I have to write about him, because he is the reason I hate men. Well we met when I was working at a video store. He walk in with his cousin who he was living with at the time. I was putting movies back on the shelf and started to follow me around the store. He was watching me and smiling that me with this big ass ugly gold tooth in his mouth (at that time I thought it was sexy as hell). I then started to help his cousin check out his movies and James was standing by him looking at me and than he said I will call you tonight. I looked up at him very strangely and said how you’re going to do that, you don’t know my number. He smiled and put a paper and pen on the desk. And like a dumb ass I give him my number…………..But you have to understand something, the way he looked at me that day made me feel so beautiful, so wanted, and so sexy……..And for the first time in along time someone was more into me.