Healing

It is a new day and I am even considering it a new week. I can put all the tension and stress behind me. I’ve been cleaning the hell out of my house because that’s what I do when I’m stressed. It’s about to shine like the top of Mr. Clean’s head. 🙂

My oldest nephew came over to me after the funeral and started to talk about theater which was totally cool and unexpected. He told me he was going to be in his school’s production of Phantom of the Opera. I mentioned it to my parents and they said they want to go see it.

It is a touchy situation. It probably always will be, and for the most part I’ve kept out of it. I was so young when my brother left. He is like a stranger to me. I don’t remember him. I think I’m about to insert myself in the situation. I think I’ll wait a few days till emotions cool even more and then I’ll facebook him. I know it might seem minuscule to you, but its a big step for me.  Its a slow process. I think I’ll wait a week or so before asking about the play. Baby steps.

I was supposed to go to a friend’s fiance’s birthday party last night, but I was just so emotionally worn out.  I stayed home.  The boy has been great.  He’s an amazing listener.  I keep apologizing for all my emotional dumping and he keeps saying its ok and that I can let it all out to him. 🙂 That feels good. There aren’t too many people I can do that with.

Well, I think I’m going to be really artsy today. Going to play my violin and do some art.