Tough Day
I visited the doctor today for my followup checkup – after one month (out of 2) in continuous 2x a day nasal spray.
She asked how I’m doing with my daily nasal douche for my allergic rhinitis. I told her the truth, I wasn’t able to do it religiously. And because I already finished up my solution yesterday and wasn’t able to mix up a solution. She got confused. I also got confused because I didn’t know how else to explain my situation, because I thought I was able to explain it simply.
Apparently, I’ve been doing it all wrong! I wasn’t suppose to use the whole solution for a very long time! I was supposed to clean my nose with the entire cupful solution in just one sitting! O.M.G. I have been using the 10cc syringe as my mode of measurement per nostril, when in fact, it should have been the entire cup for both my nostrils.
Shoot! Now I know why I’m not getting any better. And worse, it just dawned on me that I need to do it everyday (twice at the minimum, more if it’s allergy season or if an attack is about to flare up) for the rest of my life!
What’s even worse, is that I really really, as in, really, need to have my tonsils removed. Even though I sleep with my back elevated on top of so many pillows that my back is complaining already, I still wake up from my own snoring. Just this morning, when I took a nap for about an hour, twice I woke up because of interrupted breathing, like I was choking because I could not breathe. It was just 15-20 minutes apart.
Now I’m worried if these headaches I’m experiencing is because of my sleep disorder brought about by my giant tonsils. Because I’m lacking air during sleep.
Now I have to decide fast because I need to consider the schedules of my teammates. One of them will be on maternity leave by April and I guess, based on my experience, we should anticipate her due date to be before the expected date, which is, it might come at the start of April. If that’s the case, I need to be in the office at the end of March for transition of tasks. Also, I need to be in the office before March 15, because we have this toolbox with the HR where we input and update our performance quarterly and if I don’t update it within that 1 week window where the toolbox is open, then I won’t receive bonus (if there is any). So, that leaves me the 2 weeks prior to March 11, which is starting next week!!! Feb 25-March 8. Wow. That leaves me very shot time to prepare myself emotionally and mentally.
Not to mention I need to tame my blood pressure and ask it not to spike before, during, and even after the surgery.
I have to do this because I need it to be healthy. I need to be healthy because I have a baby. (Repeat a million times everyday)
it’s me,
figliarina lacrimosa