crybaby

I have a stomachache today because lately I’ve been crying a lot.

And it happens during those times that I’m eating, whether lunch or simple crackers.

I’m such a crybaby. These past tragedies that hit the Philippines really get on my nerves. Just watching it on TV, reading it on the papers or on the Internet, it makes me really really sad. And  it makes me feel so blessed to be sitting here, typing on the company’s laptop, having a job, eating crackers, having hot chocolate to drink, while our dear brothers and sisters in Visayas have nothing – their possessions have been literally swept away.

Plus I’ve been reading this book about a twenties (1920’s) girl and it puts me in perspective how to see older people. I know I love my grandma, she’s my favorite in the world. But I’ve never really engaged her in a deeper conversation. Like, I don’t know, be interested in her life before, how she used to live, like how they used to date (grandma and grandpa), or how they managed to elope. I’ve heard the story that they eloped from my parents but I’ve never given it any interest, or even asked if she wanted to tell the story to me herself.

Also my husband’s grandma is in the hospital, she has alzheimer’s disease and her lucid moments are only in minutes, if not in seconds. It’s only a matter of time before she says goodbye.

All these are making me sad today. It makes me want to go home to the province and surprise them all…

Anyway, our group is giving up our Christmas commemorative item for this year to raise funds for the victims of the typhoon. We’re going to buy instead some slippers, medicines, toiletries and other useful stuff that the people there really need right now.

I’m gonna start crying again, so I’m going to stop typing now.

it’s me,

figliarina lacrimosa