03/02/2009

 

 

What do you do,

when you can’t tell the difference between whats killing you,

and whats keeping you alive?

 

I’m hiding.

from everything.

for everyone.

I’m never really there anymore.

i don’t think any of them can tell.

 

why can’t i ever stop sabatoging myself?

i’ve been trying to keep myself busy,

soround myself with people,

constantly doing things.

anything to distract myself.

Because everytime i get alone,

and have time to think.

The sadness comes out.

The thing i’m hiding inside me,

the thing thats always trying to get out.

 

Are you fiending the freedom yet?

 

 

I don’t know what i want out of life.

I don’t know….anything anymore.

i just want this to stop.

i want to be happy.

Now.