I have a confession…..

I am sad………. like really really sad! Not in the depression kind of way. It’s different.  I’ve dealt with depression before, that’s not what this is…….. it’s just that plain and simple I am sad. I feel like I have been stuffing my feelings down for so long now that they are starting to explode. I don’t have anyone in my life I can talk to about this, as soon as you mention your sad they jump right into the depression thing and seeking help from a doctor, go see a therapist etc. It’s like people don’t understand that sometimes you can just be sad.
Don’t take me the wrong way, I have nothing against therapy, if I could afford it, it’s probably something I would have done a long time ago, but it’s just not something I can manage right now.
I just wish I had that one person in my life I could confide in, but I don’t. My family doesn’t understand me, they never have. I am just a huge disappointment to all of them.
I just sit here and cry when I’m alone, because I am the type of person that needs to feel my feelings, but I keep them to myself…… well most of the time.
I know why I am sad, but I’m not sure I am fully ready to admit why yet. Guess I’ll just have to continue to sit here in my sadness a little longer, and crying the silent tears that no one will ever see or hear. I’ll just be sad in this little bubble alone a little longer.