Thoughts

I know it has been awhile. I have been trying to get on a happy level… for the most part it is working. One of the things I have been doing is not harping on events. The year has definitly gone much better and will continue to get better, because it has too!

Anywho… what I came to write about. I had a friend over for dinner. lemme start from the beginning… Near the end of the year, I finally got the balls to talk with the super down the street. We went out twice and had a very wonderful time, both times… Then as quick as it started it ended. He wouldn’t tell me why, just that he had reasons and it definitly wasn’t me. Long story short, we still talk as friends. Nothing more, nothing less. Well, things seemed to spark up again, so I invited him over. He flaked on me… it was a situation where he couldn’t call. He apologized and made up for it tonight. We talked and had a nice time, although it was short. He basically said that things have happened and he isn’t in such a good place right now… My fault is I am a truly understanding person. Don’t get me wrong I was hoping things would go farther than they did tonight, but I would rather have a friend than anything else. So… after he left, the first thing that came to mind was the Guy… he just isn’t him and no one else is. Yes, I am still stuck on the guy, he really stole my heart even through all the stupid shit he has put me through. I must say it really sucks… that we can’t be together… But I guess that is life.

Just needed to put these thougths out there…

I hope that everyone is doing well… I have been reading here and there… note you soon!!!! Take care…