on the upswing…

Today I realized that I am no longer going to be my age in a month and a half… I can’t wait to put this year to rest!

Anywho… I was speaking with a colleague today and I had a funny realization… Some people actually take me seriously and value my opinion… To which I say why wouldn’t they, but I think it was the first time in my career I felt that way. I have always had this illusion that people don’t take me seriously and that I am a fraud and they can see right through me. I am not by any means, but the feeling is still sometimes there. Thanks to years of torment by my brother…

On another note, I spoke with new guy today. I said hello and he looked down and wasn’t sure how I was going to react. The first thing out of his mouth was I am so, so sorry… He then began to say that some things happened over the weekend and he would fill me in some other time, that he wasn’t ready to talk about it. But one day I would understand. I told him that whenever he was ready I was there. He got his phone turned on and gave me his number and he even called this evening.

I am keeping my head on my shoulders this time and going with the flow. Hopefully things will work out!!!

Regardless of that today was a good day. My students all were terriffic. We played games and talked some about the birds and the bees. I had to explain to one kid about how to effectively use condoms and some other kids chimed in to help out. I love the fact that they feel comfortable enough to come talk to me about these things. It is one of the many reasons I love these kids soooo much. My hell class was actually really well behaved today too. Kids were shushing each other when I was speaking and really showing respect and interest. Again, it was health class and we were talking about sex… go figure!