I don’t want to

live this life anymore…

I am soooo very lost and need a helping hand to show me the way back home. I am tired of the pain in my life.

This has nothing to do with stupid boys… but rather friends…and the lack of knowing what to do with myself… I have always had goals, and I have accomplished them all. Now what do I do? I have everything and nothing at all…

I can’t seem to muster up faith in a great all knowing being. Why would I? There hasn’t been anything to catch me when I have fallen before, why would there be now?

I don’t know what normal is, I can’t be that way no matter how hard I try. I can’t conform

And damnit, I am really sick of being sick.

ps. don’t worry, I will check into psych before I hurt myself… i am a chicken shit… I just want some meaning, something to look foward to at the end.