how do you stop caring?

So I am a little overly emotional today…

The thought that keeps going through my head is how do you stop caring if you are alone?

I do what I want when I want, I have the greatest friends around, I have a good job, I have good health, and lots and lots of things to be greateful for… but none of that keeps me from being lonely. I am tired of feeling this way. Tired of putting myself out there, tired of being a hopeless romantic, tired of getting hurt. I want to be the bitchy girl- that doesn’t give a shit, but that isn’t who I am. I want to stop caring about being with someone. I know it doesn’t make me who I am… I know who I am so that really isn’t the issue.

IDK… that is my little rant for the day.

I will be ok, because I always am… the universe will give me what I need when I need it… although I am having little faith in that right now!

blah, blah, blah- woo is me…

I hate feeling like this, yuck!