Creative Visualization

I am sitting here trying to think of when my life decided to spiral downhill. I can’t really pinpoint an exact event or day. I guess it just accumulated overtime. Anyhow, with all of this, I think I have turned myself into a victim. Feeling sorry for myself and lacking motivation or knowledge of how to change things. I am overcoming yet another episode of Tonsilitis and have missed a few more days of work because of it, which in turn has stressed me out.

Saturday, I was laying in bed with the worst headache of my entire life. I couldn’t muster the strength to get out of bed to go to the bathroom (eventually I did). My friend called me early that morning wanting to spend time together, but I had to tell him I was sick and that it wasn’t a good time. He was concerned and wished me well and said we would hang out another time. (which was fine) Anyway… all this to say that I changed my thought process hours later. 

As I was laying there, I had to do something to feel better. I began trying to see myself healthy, smiling, having fun. By the afternoon, I was able to get on the computer for a little while and even watch a movie.

This all came about because I have a group of freshman that failed all of their gen. ed. classes and were grouped together. I can’t get them to do anything. They simply don’t want to learn. I put together a lesson in which they had to listen to a reading about self motivation. They also are going to be given a daily visual on their behavior. Their task is to create at least three goals they want to accomplish by the end of the school year. They are to look at it everyday and visualize themselves doing it. Finally, they are to pick a partner that they will be responsible for. Each of their grades will be factored together to get their final semester grade. (they weren’t too happy about that) 

Back to lying in bed… I remembered telling them all this and looked back at my life, when I had goals and wanted things to happen, I would write them down, visualize them and the outcome. Knowing that obstacles would present themselves but it wouldn’t matter because it was that important. This is where I need to get back to.

First goal… To get healthy and energetic. This requires me to quit smoking and start exercising. It also requires me to cut out one of my two jobs so that I can have time to enjoy my life.

Second goal…to get a satisfactory rating. I see myself remaining confident in the classroom, while being observed. It is also an ordinary day where the kids just happen to be on their absolute best behavior. And leaving my principal wondering why my assistant gave me a U to begin with.

Those are my two short term goals for now. The other thing is to remember that however bad it is for me in the moment, it is worse for someone else.

cheers to all… hope everyone is doing well!