comical

life, that is.

Oh to be watching this tangled web we weave.

I don’t even know what to say or where to begin without giving all my secrets away. So I guess I will just say enough to make me remember when I look back at this time.

I had a dream about a ghost trying to render me useless with a coffee table. This is on the heels of me realizing that I needed to let go of that ghost. I guess I am still battling with that. After I woke, I was ready to start the day. No expectations, no broken heart for me today. Just confusion. Are you protecting me or do I not matter? When I told you I missed you, but it didn’t matter, your face said it all. It did matter. That’s when the confusion set in. We were going to go somewhere, at least that’s what I felt. I’m not going anywhere… that’s your decision to make, just know that I will make this promise- I will always be a part of your life as long as you want me in it. I just hope it is for a very long time.

Later that night, the realization of the life I am a part of is quite amusing. I am concerned with how a man feels about me. My brother just got released. My friend is dating someone… oh and when he finds out, let’s just say I’m gonna be sitting on the sidelines with my popcorn ready.

The man/ woman upstairs is funny. I was so caught up in my insecurities that I couldn’t see the humor. Until the light bulb went off. Whoever thought the decisions we made would lead us to where we are now. I know you who read this may not see the humor in it. You would have to know the people involved intimately. I guess you just have to stop every once in awhile and take a good look around, cause man it is comical!