break my own heart

i break my own heart

with or without him it’ll most likely break

so either way i’m screwed

i think we’re back together

i think

either that or life sucks

he came to get his stuff last night and we ended up going to see "new moon"

and then wandering around walmart for an hour

and then an hour or so at my house

before i drove him home

he said we’d go for breakfast and to call him when i was ready

so i called him at 10:30 and we went to a&w for breakfast

and then to walmart

and then to music city where he bought a left handed beginner acoustic guitar

and then to my house where i taught him some stuff about guitar

i taught him "puff the magic dragon"

then he said he needed to stop the guitar for a while and asked if i wanted to watch a movie..so we put on across the universe and he went to cuddle me so i just lay in his arms..and after like 20 mins of the movie we ended up kissing which led to crazy making out which led to crazy sex.

after we went at the guitar again..then we ate..and had more crazy sex..

then i showed him some chords..just basic c,d,e, and a..

then he had to work so i drove him.

its actually been a good two days but what does it mean to him?

there is no god. only what you want.

i break my own heart.