Mum…

 dear old Mum..  Seriously losing the plot…. In and out of hospital.. Refusing offers of assistance..  inappropriate sharing of my private business (often inaccurately) with random people.. Serious memory losses.. Not eating properly or cooking meals.. But still out there on her own.. With the neighbours sheep in through the fallen down fences.. All the burnt trees and ground.. The tourists that come daily and buses On tour weekly.. Sigh.. Often a mildly spoken question from my brother or myself provokes a angry illogical outburst from her now.. she drives herself everywhere.. Spending enormous amounts on fuel coming into town -30ks away- almost daily to get one bag of groceries or to sit in a shop. Complains about everything my kids do or don’t do and then complains they don’t want to spend time with her.. Was mortifyingly rude to me at a public meeting we both attend out loud and when my brother spoke to her about it she decided we were arguing and involving her… Sigh.. Personalizing.. .. Paranoid.. Defensive.. Having trouble with everyday tasks making decisions.. memory loss.. Confusion at times… appalling driving behavior.. very clear to me what’s going on.. but what is to be done?? Hmmm spent today writing her a letter but I think I need to pin her down with a aged counsellor person to get some proper plans of action in place. And definitely the financial and asset issues sorted by herself.. And written down.. Before she’s incapable.. Have to broach the other unspoken about issue too.. That I have been avoiding so as not to trigger her crazy side.. Umm.. Scuze me Mum but how come you gave the big farm to my brother 10 years ago and aren’t giving me the smaller bit of land you promised to me as my share??  Hmmm??? So neglected and overgrown and trespassed on..  She’s gonna be in trouble with the council soon for not keeping it fire safe… Grrr..  Got to sit her down and make her listen with a mediator..  And get her to carry out her decision! So difficult 🙁 .. Sigh..