bit less… encumbered..

I have been sitting here for a few hours now… trying to work out how I feel… I think I feel good… relieved… free…

My lover and I have finally decided not to be lovers any more… yes I know this is the third (fourth?) time.. but this time I didn’t cry.. mainly because I had already decided for myself… time to move on..

After 14 months of waiting for my ex to come up with a better property settlement offer (than his original me 20% him 80%) – he did come up with a ‘different’ one… but the percentage had not improved and it included a 10 year lease back to him clause.. this made my thinking SO much clearer as to what I would actually want to happen (so our kids benefit to the max) that I was able to express this, clearly and in detail, in writing, with supporting documentation – sent that off… and felt SO elated that I have now expressed my wishes that I really don’t care what the final outcome is – because I have made myself heard… properly..

And,  another epiphany.. I finished, completed, and passed my course today… after a huge last minute effort – so now I am officially a (re) qualified Adult Educator.

And, I have been keeping in communication with the mine manager/s, visited and toured the site, made some recommendations to them, all of which have immediately been followed up. I have also made some really good contacts that will be useful in my continued quest for involvement in this venture… and… after extensive enquiry have also expressed to the managers that I will support them as I no longer have concerns about negatives…

Also, the website for my mother’s tourist business is up and running.. looks great.. and I am getting the URL lettering on my car, to match the pictures, next week..

mikkirakoalas.com

Kids and I are going to stay there (on and off) for most of the Christmas holiday break and take the dog and the cat with us. (not sure how THAT will go haha)

And the property settlement court date has been set for Feb 10, so then we will be able to make decisions again about where and how we will be living.. my future employment depending… maybe.. unless I can support us with self-employment.. have to see…

Oh, and I put that I was ‘single’ on my internet profile… that has been interesting… if anyone knew where I was living I would have to get a big stick to beat them all off! And seriously, you can barely make out anything from my photo (or info). I never knew there were so many single men in their early 50s looking for luurrve… haha

Anyway this event has made me very cheerful and if I never meet my ‘perfect’ man I don’t really care as I am beginning to have a very entertaining time being single! I do very much enjoy the company and conversation of men, and now I am free to enjoy it.

Two more days to go before school breaks up… hanging out… byee