::Sigh::

For some reason I have been thinking about the past lately. Why I don’t know because I know the past can’t be changed. I was sitting in my living room last night and started to cry. I miss Drew. I don’t know why but I do. I miss how I felt when we were together. He made me feel important and alive. I know it’s a good thing that we aren’t together anymore but I feel so stupiid for breaking up with him. I have been listening to this group called Skillet and their song The Last Night alot lately. It has been making me feel somewhat better.

I really miss B. I know that a lot of things have been said by both of us but I still really miss him. We were great friends or so I thought. I just feel like everyone that I love and care about keeps leaving me and I am so afraid that I am going to just disappear because everyone keeps leaving. Idk what to do.

I miss my best friend. We were talking yesterday on line and I just started to cry. These are the times that I just wish we were alot closer in distance than we are. I miss all the good and the bad stuff. I miss the good because it was the funnest time we had and I miss the bad because it brought us a lot closer. I know I have already said that I miss her but I really do. It’s just not the same without her. I know she will always be here for me and she’s here in my heart always but it’s just hard not to see her face to face.