~Millions of Pieces~

Okay so here it is…a real update now that I have some free time.

So things between Dave and I were going amazingly great until last night. We have been talking about moving in together for the past couple months…where we wanted that to be…if we wanted it to be a house or an apartment….and things were great. He was so excited because we would finally be together for good. Well that all changed for some reason last night. I have no idea what happened. He wont talk to me now. All he said to me was it was over. No warning. No explanation…just done and over. Ofcourse I got absolutely no sleep last night because I was up crying all night. (I know I should have called you but you have enough going on chicky.) So even now I can’t get him to talk to me but I’m not pushing it because I am hoping and praying that he is going to change his mind. So needless to say I am so far from being okay. It would be different if this was just a couple months thing. But him and I have been together off and on for the past 8 years and I never really truly ever stopped being in love with him. I have tried. Harder than I have tried for anything to stop loving him but something just wont let me. I feel so lost. I know I shouldnt feel that way because of a guy but I do. I am totally lost. He was the compass that pointed me to my destinations. Well I feel tears coming on again so I am going to cut this right here before it gets completely out of control.

~millions of pieces~