Seven: No Friends, No Drama

She cuts herself to forget him
And every time her wounds get deeper
Tonight’s the night she’s gonna shed her skin
Cause she’s thinkin that he doesn’t need her
She’s wishing all this would end
And she’s gonna try to take her own life again

You’ll Be Alright

I have no idea what is running through my head. I’ve been taking enormous amounts of diet pills. I’m pretty sure they’re the reason for my migraines and sleepless nights. I have to take my tranquilizer to sleep now. I want to exercise but I’m so tired. I’ve cut down my portions. I purge less but at the same time, I want to so bad. I don’t though. It upsets people in my home too much.

I don’t know how much more I can take of all of this nonsense. I feel so worthless these days. I’m trying to reconnect with old friends but it seems they all think I’m the one “that got away.” You see my friends that are female are few and my male friends seem to want to date me now. I don’t understand them. I like guys better than girls because they make me feel safe and no petty jealously, but it comes with a price.

I can’t stop listening to “Running in the Rain,” by Hinder. It makes me feel like someone understands me. I don’t know what’s going on with me but my anxiety and depression have hit an ultimate high.

I can’t even write these entries hardly anymore because I don’t know what to say….

Thank you so much for reading.

Sincerely,

Katrina.