One: Living Life Without Hope

Have you ever felt so alone that
sometimes, you question your own sanity?

You Don’t Know Her</b

No Hope?It’s really hard for me to express my feelings so publicly. I know the chances of someone reading this (much less someone I know) are slim but it’s still hard. I mean it’s hard for me to even put into word how I’m feeling in my head – much less on paper.

I am having a horrible time trying to sleep. When I do sleep, I cannot stay asleep. When I wake up, I do not feel rested. I’ve been having bad dreams. I don’t know what the signs of a major depressive episode is but I feel like I’m having one. I start my new therapy place next week. I’m really nervous. College also starts back next week. I’m having money troubles. Maybe that’s why I feel depressed. I have a hard time knowing there are things to be done – it completely overwhelms me.

I know I was supposed to post in this entry a poem I wrote but I don’t feel comfortable doing that yet. I am going to cut this one short. Until next time, God bless.

Sincerely,
Katrina