Fourteen: Getting So Big Now

Can’t you see she’s falling apart?

I Am HUGE Now

Today I feel extremely large. Below I am going to post comparisons pictures of me back in 2008 and now. It’s a hideous difference. I don’t even eat that much but my body is clinging onto the calories….or so I hear every time I go to therapy. They’re sending to me to Bluegrass Nutrition Center in Lexington, KY. What joy is that. Do they not realize I obsess over food? I know how much calories to eat and whatnot…it’s just hard but maybe this will help me. I don’t know. It’s surely worth a shot I guess.

Finals are emerging. I cannot wait until next semester. It’s one of my last as an undergrad. I couldn’t be more thrilled (even if it just means Grad school afterwards.) Why am I such a perfectionist? ICK. I hate myself sometimes. Btw, I signed up for Pilates in the Spring. It will get me out of the house and back into a weight loss routine. I should be able to lose more weight with this, or maybe gain weight. I am not sure if this is a building muscle type thing.

So NOJOMO is almost over, thank goodness. It is so hard to write in my role play diary everyday but so far I’ve done it….I don’t even know what else to say. All I seem to want to talk about is how I am. Why is body image always on my mind?!

I hope everyone else is doing well! My sister made a diary under fallingisfatalxx. You should check her out!

Sincerely
Katrina

See how much fatter I am now? Gosh! I’m the short one with the orange tanktop on or the one in the blue tanktop or the black shirt with the purple tanktop under it. My sister is the beautiful one beside me. I feel so huge these days. *sighs*