2/7/2018

Work is still making me nuts. Or rather leadership (and the lack there of). I had to go through a chair side because of a couple of errors. It was such a cluster. The people who should know didn’t know what was going but I’m expected to just comply. It was all I could do to keep a straight face.

Meanwhile I have the settlement conference with the ex tomorrow. I’m not expecting much to come of that. Not really looking forward to that either. It’s the first time I will have been anywhere near here since November. I’m still not happy with her. Still hurt. I was going over events in my mind. There moments if I did the right thing in filing for divorce. Then I remember that she started the process of setting up the protection order before she was served with notice of the divorce. She had no knowledge of the divorce at the time. If I had not filed first she would have still set up the protection order. Still exaggerated events. Still made up events. Still left me out in the wind but expected me to pay for her to stay at home and pretend to be a mom to my kids. Still just pushed me away and expected me to come back to her like she always did. I would have just been in limbo if I had done it her way. I’m glad I filed when I did.  Even if it does suck, I will be able to move on.