The BREAK Up!

Well it happened about 2 minutes ago!!!!

Me and Jeff broke it off… We together decided that me and him should be friends, that both of our lives are to busy amd complicated for either of us to be in a serious relationship!!!! (ouch) this hurts soooo friggin bad! I love that man so much, but maybee God is trying to get me to do whats right! I guess…… He is still married and I am still married, and tecnically he cheated on her with me, so that makes me and him even more wrong! But man, why does this hurt so bad, if this is what i should have done!

I love him, I do, i really really do! But everytime me and him tried to do something together like move in together… Things would happen to where we couldnt make it happen… well i went ahead I guess and looked at like everything that had been going on was a sign to show me that this is not what i need… (that he is not what i need) But he is what i want!!!! He is! I miss him so bad right now! This is Killing me…. For something to be so wrong, why did it feel so right?

Why did I fall in love if it was not meant to be?

Why did he have to be married?

Why did he have to lie to me in the beginning about everything?

Why is my life the way it is right now?

Seriously, I am soo friggin emotionally tired… I need a Mental Vacation!

Christine Elizabeth @}—————-