My second night of being alone!

I miss him…. I really do! I know that i shoudl just be able to move on from it, cause it was a situation that i should never have been in. But i LOVE him..

There is just this connection with him that i am affraid i am never going to have again!

Seriously, How many times do you find someone in your life that you can connect with, and talk to for hours and hours at a time! Me and Jeff would get on the phone and talk for so long that i would sometimes forget where I was and what i was suppose to be doing..

Being with him, was giving me a purpose to feel pretty, sexy, and it made me think wow a guy like that wants me? really me?

But now here I am alone!     ALONE…. I hate that word. I really do!I hate that i still live at home, i dont make much money, I am a single mom, my soon to be ex husband never gives me a dime! What a healty description of myself!

I really do love myself, (thats a lie) (A BIG  FAT ONE)

today at work i did feel good though, i decorated the store with decor for halloween! I think I did a good job, my 20 year old assistant manager and I went shopping for all the decorations and extra candy to sell today, and then went back to the store and I did the decorating!

Its weird WENDY (the old best friend) aka the BITCH! she is talking to me again, but only cause she sees me getting closer to other people! She wants to keep telling me that they are all lieing to me about everything that they dont like me and that they dont want to be my friend, she said they pitty me and that is why they talk to me!

Can you believe that?

I guess she thinks that i am not worthy enough to talk to anyone but her!

but besides all this that is going on in my life! I am going to work my ass off all day tomorrow! and clean and maybee excersize and get some endorphins going! Maybee it will make me feel better!

Words to live by:  Remember the Sunshine will allways prevail after the rain!

Christine Elizabeth@}———–