I want a staircase moment

SO…. HIs surgery was today, it went well I think! We talked on the phone for a little while but he was on some pain killers..I think that it is possible for me to give up having kids of my own.. That is if me and him stay together forever.. I really do like him a lot… We are all ready saying I love you’s…. I know it is to early, but he said it first.. I am not sure if it is an insecurity of his.. I don’t know

I don’t want to stop saying it, and I don’t say it as much as he does, I feel bad when I don’t say it back but honestly how is it that we can have these feelings so early in the relationship?

I feel so special every time we talk I smile so BIG that it is ridiculous. I am trying to convice myself that I am not being childish…