I think my O2 level is finally rising!!!

So it has taken me a while and a few stumbles and hurdles but HE (God) pulled me back up~ He found me, he looked me in the face and told me Christine, What have you been doing? you know I love you where have you been why have i not heard from you?

Let me tell you, it has taken a while but WOW, I know now where i need to be! and that is right where i am just not doing the things i have been doing, going the places i have been!

To stop and look I am so ashamed! I am ready for HIM to turn all my darkness back into light!!!

Today the pastor said it is impossible for there to be darkness when the light is on~ and if you thnk about it, it makes so much scence! You know, I always ask God, Where do you want me? But what i have to understand is if i am living in sin why whould God show me where he wants me? and i would keep asking him to send me the one man he has for me, but if i want a godly man why would he give him to me now if again i am STILL living in sin?

I need to PRAY first and then PLAN i need to be in the will of God to recieve the best of life!

I need to RAISE my spiritual ALERT! The alarm needs to go off in my soul, I need to retrain myself in the way God wanted me to be!

I want to be FREE!

I need to turn from all my sin! and look UP! and see who has been looking down in tears~

I need to stop letting the

WORLD, FLESH and the DEVIL Control me!

I want my life to start GLORIFYING God!

I need to change from the inside OUT! I want people to look at me and know that i am a CHRISTIAN~ I want to represent the true way of life!

I want to stop being do distracted in life and learn how to actually focus!

I am in a Spiritual CRISIS, But i am going to pull myself out, cause God said through him i can do all things!

The heart of my problem is my HEART!

God, Please mend my heart and soul, I am ready to be what you want me to be!