I am soooo Sick…

Whewww… Wow if you wanted to know everything that has happened to me in the past year I would need a book… No a couple of books! From this man that I thought I was going to be with forever to My best friend having a baby that we were scared would not make it, also thought it was not her husbands… To surviving being a single mom of a 4 year old! to my phsyco soon to be ex husband plus he thought he was having another baby and it was not going to be with his girlfriend of almost a year! It was with his manager at McDonalds….(lol) Also I am still in the middle of tons of drama here at home cause i live with my parents and my 20 year old brother (who btw is perfect in their eyes) They keep trying to take rule over Caylen (my daughter) and be littleing me in front of her!

Also at work, i am a manager who gets paid nothing but yet I am there more then anyone else!

I WANT more in life! I am so alone right now it is not funny!

Is there anything wrong with wanting a man to love me for who I am?

To be married and have 2 kids and stay at home and cook & clean take care of the kids… do my photography while they are in school and be everythig my usband (that i dont have) wants me to be…..

This is all I want! I WANT to be settled….

Why can i not find a guy that wants me? Well let me rephrase that I have found a few men that want me but for some reason i can not click with them! So Why? can i not find a man that me and him fit together! I guess what i am saying is why has the man that was made for me the one that GOD said you will love CHIRISTINE… why has he not found me yet?

Oh btw how about i have gone out with  4 men in the past week! Just to let you know so it does not sound like i am a slut I did not sleep with any of them!

Ok so:

Guy #1 weirded me out and he cant kiss worth anything (that is so important to me) he tried to swallow my face and puckered up like 5 min before he even reached my lips…..

Guy #2 I really liked and i thought was super interesting! Plus was a great kisser! (he has yet to call me) but texted me only to ask if his sunglasses were in my bag! (so i know he had my number) (ouch)

Guy #3 Wow this one was really really ummm i dont know what word to say so that it is rated G but GOOOD night all he wanted was one thing…plus he was like half my size! I think if I sat on him I would kill him! (i know that it is not important on looks and physical apperance) But you don have to some what be attracted to some one right?

Guy # 4 Well he was def a really nice guy and how about he was DEAF! that is not a bad thing… But me and him could not hardly communicate! We had to use texting! Plus my friend just so happens that her mom is deaf so she interpreted for us but me and him did not click either! Both of us decided to jsut be friends…..

Soooo what the heck is wrong with me! I am stopping Mr. right from approaching me?

Well it is late I am going to go dream about what it would be like to be COMPLETE!

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Christine Elizabeth