08/16/2009

I need to stop and start reflecting on everything that has happened in the last month…. I have moved and Caylen is now 5, She is starting kindergarten soon i have so much to do and so much money going in so many places!! Also we had a house warming party and then Caylen’s party the next day.. so i havent had the time to stop and think about everything that i have set in front of me to deal with and things that i need to prepare and do!! Errr plus i am workin as much as i can so that i know for sure that everthing will be getting paid!

No only all of that but I am also in a little bit of this love thing… I am not sure that I am doing the right thing with the right person.. But I have just recently decided to leave a few people out of my life as possible!! 

Sooo I am also smoking like crazy and i had just quit, plus i have gained some weight!! Tomorrow is Moday so i have told myself that i am going to set things straight..

Like put everything back in order like it should be… I am just so scared and weak sometimes and i dont have some one all the time to be there when i am at my weakest point to encourage me… and to be my will power!!

Christine