sounds like the makings of a basterd!

Well, I’m sick.  I’m coughing, my throat hurts, and my nose is dripping.  I need a plug for it or something. 

I feel like I haven’t written in a while.  I’ve been doing alot with school.  My average this term is 82%!  I’m excited about this, because damn, the shit I’m learning is HARD!  I’ve gotten so many D’s on tests it isn’t even funny.  But somehow I’m pulling through with a B.

I’ve been hanging out with my friend Josh and his buds lately.  It’s kind of wierd because he’s so open about liking me even though he knows I have a boyfriend.  I told him point blank I don’t intend on breaking up with Tom, but he just doesn’t quit.  It’s kind of bothering me.  Other then that he’s a great friend.  I feel like I’m one of the guys when I go over there.  HAHA I even smoked a cigar with em the other day.  They’re very dark tho those boys.  Always looking on the sad or bad side of things.  I think I bring a little light into their life.  I make em smile anyway, I hope that counts.

Oh and speaking of Tom.  It’s happening again.  First it was he’d be here on Valentines day, then it was he’d be here on my birthday, then it was I’ll come down for spring break… and now I think he’s going to try to push it back to may.  *sigh*  I thought he told me just last week he’d be fine financially if he came down in march, and now he’s saying he isn’t.  He’s also saying his whole family will be comming down in may with him.  I just don’t know what to think about it all.  I mean it’d be kinda cool for his family to visit.  But i think he’s waiting just to save some cash and take another free ride to come and see me.  It pisses me off alot how mommy and daddy pay for so much still for him.  Maybe I’m just jealous.  I don’t know… It’s just that I’ve gone up to visit him alot… and all of it was out of my pocket.  And I still have just as many bills to pay as he does.  I work so hard just to save up and see him, and he never does the same for me.  I have to sit here and beg for it, and then it still doesn’t happen!  His argument is that he doesn’t make as much as me, but he can’t say that because that’s his choice.  He could work more then 2 or 3 days a week, but chooses not to.  I feel like he just doens’t even try or maybe I’m just not at least one of the top three on his priority list when he’s like first on mine.  It really starts to piss me off when I start to think about it.  I feel like he takes me for granted.  Like he thinks maybe if he waits long enough I’ll just give in again and go up there to see him.  I”M KIND OF SICK OF IT!!  Because I don’t have mommy and daddy to back me up when i’m short on cash from visiting him.  Not that I’m bashing his parents, but I just don’t think he knows what I go through just to go up there and see him.  I mean I got back from seeing him this month and I litterally have 15 dollars in the bank after paying all my bills.  And that’s MORE then my mom has at the moment.  Wer’re all a bunch of broke bitches up in here!  But I still sacrifice to come and see him…. anyway.. so point made simple… I’m pissed that I always make the effort once again.

I just wish for once he’d suprise me or at least act supprised about something with me…  whatever.

On a lighter note.  My family all have jobs once again.  They were all out of jobs there for a while because the place they all worked at went out of business.  But alas, I am no longer the breadwinner of the household.  ^_^  Thank GOD!  I thought we were going to have to live off of food stamps there for a little while.  Josh was offering to buy us groceries and everything.  I’m just going to say, I love my uncle though, because if it wan’t for him, we probably would be needing food stamps.  But all is well now.  We have jobs!

That’s about it for now… I miss everyone that I used to talk to all the time on here.  Jen, Izzy, Aaron, Audrey!  Neway, I hope you guys are alright.  Hopefully I’ll hear from you guys soon.  Take care