Breaking it

I haven’t been able to write here since I found out about Sandy Hill. Writing this note to an OD friend helped me explain why.  Another OD Friend JeniDancer expressed more of what I feel when she mentioned how odd it is to just write about every day matters.

I still talk to everyone in my life that I normally do but for some reason I am have difficulty writing an entry here on OD.

Thanks for being able to write here about the affect the deaths of those in Sandy Hooks is having on you.It somehow helps me.

To not grieve would feel to me as though what happened did’nt matter anymore. That must be it. In every day life the grieving is shared. [Eyes in the mirror]

12/17/2012 7:43:47 AM

On OD, if I talk about anything else I feel like I am trivializing lost lives in Sandy Hook by not mentioning them, but when I think of writing about them I am utterly speechless. This renders me speechless about everything here.

I want a way to remember here, and even share in grief here as I move through life. Grief hasn’t taken over my life but neither should it be ignored. Your entry inspires [Eyes in the mirror]
12/17/2012 7:58:24 AM

Me. I’m not sure what I will do with that inspiration but please know that what you have written here, about Sandy Hook and about your own life, matters and is valued by this mute. [Eyes in the mirror]

I am grateful, once again for this community and how very real you all are to me.