Been a While

 Sitting here, early hours of the morning, drinking a glass of wine and wondering if I’ve even got anything worth writing about. *shrugs* It’s been a Long year. After 2.5yrs I quit my sometimes job. It got to the point that I paid more in gas than I was getting paid. Plus it appears we’ll be moving soon.
 I can’t wait to get away from this place. Somewhere in one of my boxes I’ve got an application for in flight service crew on a major air line, at this point I’m thinking how bad could bring on the go really be. It’s not like I’ve actually gone anywhere or done anything. Keeping my fingers crossed I can find it and get hired on. Anywhere but where I am.
 I’m back in my 1.5-3hrs of sleep a night rut again, been in it for going on 8 months, but the dr just says " don’t drink anything with caffeine after 10am". Yeah, because that really helps. Not that I have that much caffeine anyway. It’s rare I even have coffee in the morning or soda for that matter. Tired is an understatement. Of course if you factor in the nightmares that invade the little sleep I do get, it just makes it all seem worse. 
 This year will be five years since I lost my Dad. If time heals all wounds, I’m wondering how much time. It’s still raw and wide open, bleeding even. There are some days, VERY few and FAR between, that I feel almost normal. The days where the agony of loss isn’t choking me, but most days I plaster on a smile and fake it. I’ve gotten so good I can even fool myself, for about one millionth of a second. Makes those around me feel better though.
 I’ve finally gotten through to my kids dr about some testing that several specialists have requested. Get to see my poor baby be tortured next week. Hopefully, the results are negative and we can avoid any further unpleasantness. Poor thing has already lost all vision in one eye and the other is failing. I could kill the stupid drs for having pissed around so long on treating her. It’s now estimated that full vision loss will occur before she finishes high school. Originally they said shed have into her twenties, if she got the treatment she needed. Thank you arseholes in DC for all your military budget cutbacks over the last several years. 
 Gonna have to do a quick clean in the morning, having people over sat. I’ve got a full house for Manicotti night. Seems people still like my cooking. I’m excited. I miss having lots of people to cook for.  
 Yep, I’m boring, but I’m back?